Under the Weather

We've been having a pretty good spell of rain these last couple of weeks. We've literally had days on end of pretty consistent rainfall. In fact, it's been raining here since Wednesday night. I normally like it when it rains, but I don't like to ride my bike in the rain (at least when I'm going to work) most of the time, and so I've been forced to drive for the last two days. It literally bums me out as much as one could be bummed out. I have fallen in love with riding my bikes as much as possible. Riding to school has helped me wake up before teaching, and it helps to get the blood and oxygen flowing to my brain so that I'm not sluggish by the time I need to get to work.

I think you can tell why the consistent rain has kind of bummed me out these last few weeks. Tomorrow is the bike swap meet here in Lincoln. Even though I really wanted to go last year, me and all of my friends forgot and missed out. This year the organizers are hoping that they can double the attendance of the swap meet. I am stoked to go tomorrow, and I basically have been calling all my friends reminding them, but tomorrow I am going by myself. I'm not waiting for anyone else. A cup of coffee and a bunch of bikes and bike parts. I don't really need anything, although if I see something really cool I will buy it in a second. Honestly I'm kind of hoping to find an old cruiser or road bike just to play with.

Besides that, I came home from school today and picked up Amelie and took her to the car and we drove around listening to old reggae and rocksteady. It was rainy, but fun either way. The picture of above is the very end of our drive.

The rain really does bum me out, and it's been bumming other people out as well. Maybe everyone else being bummed out makes me happy. For whatever reason I feel like when everyone else is bummed out they might have some sort of idea of what it feels like for me lately. Sometimes in sociology classes we have looked at survey data where they have actually asked questions to people about depression by asking things like how strongly they agree to items like "most days it feels like there are clouds even when there are not," it always made me laugh. I think I understand why this question is used now.

It's not right that I want other people to feel like I have the last month or so, and being crushed is so brutal. I think I might just take Amelie and go drive around listening to reggae a little more. Sitting at home is definitely not having a positive effect on me. I'm tired of drinking with my friends, and I'm sick of sitting home by myself. If only it wasn't raining I would go ride my bike. 30 miles sounds like fun right now.